I am so sick of everything. I can't put it down in words. But one thing I'm sure is that I don't want to be here right now, which I can't understand because this is the place I always wanted to be.

Maybe it's my trauma that's messing with my mind. Maybe there's nothing wrong here at all, and I'm just imagining things. But is that coincidence? I can't know for sure. But one thing for sure, I need to be out of here now.